do you ever feel like you aren’t good enough for someone so you literally just give up


I question who my friends are everyday….that’s a sad way to live huh?

When I was little
I told my dad I stubbed my toe
So he told me to bite my finger
Until I forget about the toe
And was only thinking of the finger

To take one pain away by focusing on another

It actually sounds quite similar
To something I do now

c.k.  (via fuckinq)

(Source: sometimestheysayitbetter)

I’m unloveable.

I got dumped because of my depression.
it’s gotten really bad again and I’ve started cutting again.
that’s not the part of me he loves. I’ve changed. I’m not the same person anymore.
he called my mom and told her how bad I’ve gotten.
my depression, anxiety, self harm, all of it. my parents know.
my sister and cousin know too. she called them.
and my brother knows too. I guess he’s known. just never understood why.
I talked to my sister and cousin last night about it. I might be spending my summer in Florida with them to help me get better. I don’t know though.
my mom called my therapist to ask if he knew and to talk about it and find ways to help me.
my whole family knows. my boyfriend dumped me. my heart is racing. everything is a mess.
depression and anxiety has ruined everything for me.


dating me means dating my anxiety and my random spouts of depression it means dating my panic attacks at 11pm or 2 am or 5am or anytime of the day for that matter it means dating my mood swings where i get really upset over everything about me and all my insecurities and how i’m not good enough because i’m never good enough

I was right. my depression ruined yet another relationship for me. my depression changed me and I’m not the same person he loves.